Dearest Clarity,
My daughter and I recently traveled to Italy with my father for a three week vacation. It was the first time my daughter has ever been on a plane, and gone anywhere over seas. I was soooooooooooo happy to get away, because like I said things had gotten pretty intense at home. Having my daughters dad come back into our lives has been a huge adjustment for us, and continues to be. It brought back a lot of emotions and issues for me that I have never really been able to work through. When your on your own with a little munchkin, you don't really have a chance to let yourself really release, you know? It was a great trip, the beauty of Italy is magical and mysterious and amazing. I am so grateful my daughter and I got to have the experience, for so many reasons. I also got to really get to know my father's family, and understand a lot about my dad's life, and about that part of who I am. Being there taught me a lot. I had a lot of time to think and really absorb everything that's gone on lately. I started journaling again for the first time in years, and really realized how much I neglect myself. It's so important to have personal time and really nurture yourself, even if it's just sitting in silence for twenty minutes. The biggest lesson I learnt though, was that you can't run away. Although I had a great time, all the issues and feelings I had at home, I had there. When I was there I promised myself that as soon as I got home, I would face everything I had been avoiding, head on. Wheather it's a late bill, a friend, an ex, or fear of some kind, I would face it. So that' s what I'm trying to do. It's scary but it feels good!
My daughter and I recently traveled to Italy with my father for a three week vacation. It was the first time my daughter has ever been on a plane, and gone anywhere over seas. I was soooooooooooo happy to get away, because like I said things had gotten pretty intense at home. Having my daughters dad come back into our lives has been a huge adjustment for us, and continues to be. It brought back a lot of emotions and issues for me that I have never really been able to work through. When your on your own with a little munchkin, you don't really have a chance to let yourself really release, you know? It was a great trip, the beauty of Italy is magical and mysterious and amazing. I am so grateful my daughter and I got to have the experience, for so many reasons. I also got to really get to know my father's family, and understand a lot about my dad's life, and about that part of who I am. Being there taught me a lot. I had a lot of time to think and really absorb everything that's gone on lately. I started journaling again for the first time in years, and really realized how much I neglect myself. It's so important to have personal time and really nurture yourself, even if it's just sitting in silence for twenty minutes. The biggest lesson I learnt though, was that you can't run away. Although I had a great time, all the issues and feelings I had at home, I had there. When I was there I promised myself that as soon as I got home, I would face everything I had been avoiding, head on. Wheather it's a late bill, a friend, an ex, or fear of some kind, I would face it. So that' s what I'm trying to do. It's scary but it feels good!
Dear Molly,
ReplyDeleteI commend you for relaizing that you need to take care of yourself too! Healthy moms raise healthy bebes!
Facing our fears is never an easy thing to do, but sometimes you have to just let go and let God. You are in good hands. When he leads you to a cliff one of two things will happen: you will fall and he will catch you or he will teach you how to fly! I have a feeling you had some flying lessons because your doing great!