I can't Breathe!!!!!!!

Dearest Clarity,
I wanna apologize for not writing in so long. These last few weeks have been soooooooo crazy for me. It was my birthday, my daughter's birthday and then Mother's Day of course. During this time my daughter's father also contacted me for the first time in about a year. It's shaken up my world. I feel scared, confused, sad, angry and the anxiety is so intense. What do I do? How do I trust he won't go again, why now? The questions, thoughts and feelings go on and on. I wanna believe that somehow things will be ok. He is back and will be a great father to my daughter, but after all our history and heartache and let downs, how can I believe anything but destruction. I literally feel like I can't breathe! I know what I need to do, what I need to say and how this needs to be done, but the second I think about confronting him or just talking to him, I just wanna die. I can't help but have all those old feelings of fear and anxiety come back. I guess all I can do is stand up for what I believe in, and just trust that whats meant to be will be. I wanna believe in him, I really do. I just pray for my daughter's sake, that this works out and doesn't cause her anymore pain.