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Dearest Clarity,

I don't know about all of you mommy's out there but I feel like I've been trying to get to know myself all over again. I remember waking up in the middle of the night, a few months after my daughter was born and thinking wow, I don't even know who I am any more. I would look down at her precious face, and the intense love I felt for her was so overwhelming. As silly as it might sound to some, I often cried at night when I was feeding my daughter from the intense feeling of love I felt. For me, giving birth and having this being that I love more than life, changed everything. What I believed in, my values, my morals, what I wanted, who I wanted, it was like I had to get to know myself all over again. I was thinking back to the choices I used to make when it came to my priorities, guys, school, my career and I had it all wrong. I thought thank god! thank god! that I had my beautiful daughter because the amount of lessons I've learnt from this experience is priceless. 

I'm so thankful for my experience so far as a mother, and all it has brought to my life and who I am today. I want to go to school now, I want a great guy who will treat me like a Queen, I want to make a difference in the world, I want to be a good person, daughter, sister, wife, friend and mother. I guess what I'm trying to say, is I am so happy I had to get to know myself all over again, cause I love the person I've met. It has taken me the last few years to get to this point, but I finally feel like I am at peace with who I am. I fought the new me hard! I tried to go back to who I was, but it did nothing but bring me pain. I have officially surrendered to who I am today, what my life is today, and I am happy. From this, I've learnt that if you are not in the reality of your situation your never gonna grow or get any where, because you're not in your truth. Sure I miss the freedom and often dream of what could have bin, but I am ready to live in the moment, in my truth. I am a single mother going back to school ready to work hard and create a beautiful life for me and my daughter and I love that!