TO SCHOOL FOR COOL

Dearest Clarity,
So I finally started school!!! which is why I haven't been around lately. I feel so funny wearing a back-pack again! Maybe because I'm so damn short, I look like I should be going to high school when I have it on.  haha!  I feel like such a nerd too, yesterday I had to ask these girls in my class to be quiet because I wanted to hear the lecture, and I sit in the front row!  These are things I never would have done in high school, because back then I thought I was too cool for school, and that is the very reason I'm still having to go to school now. Oh well! You live and you learn, right?  

I have to say it is pretty intense.  I've really had to change a lot of my habits and my daughters. Getting her to fall a sleep on her own is one of them, which I'm just beginning to think is never gonna happen! :(   Also getting myself to sleep earlier is not working out so much, no matter how tired I am.  I just cherish my down time at night so much, I never want it to end! It's the only time as a parent I feel I can really just chill out.  

On a good note, I am feeling really good about being back in school.  I know I'm doing the right thing and I feel like I'm on the right path finally, which feels great.  It's been a long, crazy journey so far and I really feel like its just gonna get better and better from here.  

At school I am studying child development.  It is so interesting to learn about our little munchkins and to see where I've gone right, and where I've gone wrong. Well, where I've gone wrong was a bit hard to swallow but there is no such thing as a perfect parent.  That's the one thing Ive gotten out of my classes so far, that I'm thankful for.  I can be so hard on myself when it comes to being a mom, but I'm realizing we can only do the best we can as parents.  As long as we are acting and making decisions out of love and respect for ourselves and our children, we will be alright. 

Well wish me luck! I 'm gonna get back to my readings now, cause I am proud to say that I am no longer to cool for school, I am now too school for cool! :)