FLYING SOLO

Dearest Clarity,
One of the hardest parts about being a single parent, for me is the loneliness.  I'm having a hard night tonight.  It took me what felt like forever to get my daughter to bed.  She pulled out all her tricks! One more hug mommy? I'm thirsty,  I have to pee, I just want to tell you how much I love you! Cute? yes, but at the end of a long day all I want to do is have some me time.  All week she has been super attached to me and wont leave my side.  I finally got her to sleep and now I'm sitting here feeling relieved, but at the same time I have this overwhelming feeling of loneliness.  It's these moments  I just wish I had someone to vent to, or someone to hold me and say, oh man that was a tough night, someone to just be there who has just gone through it with me, who truly understands and loves her to pieces, exactly the same way I do.  

At the same time, while writing this I feel crazy because I do have sooooo many amazing and supportive friends and family, but for some reason in moments like this the loneliness is still there.  I'm writing this not to feel sorry for single parents or myself, but to share my truth of what it's like, because maybe just one parent out there might feel the same way, and take comfort in knowing that they aren't the only ones flying solo and really feeling it from time to time.